I am A child of the King, the storm can come, the wind can blow but im standing, and i will keep standing,  because i'm rooted on higher ground. Come hail or high water, my God is seated on the throne.

Looking from the top

I've probably been missing home a little  for the past few weeks, as u can tell from 'homesick'  entry. As cliche as this may sound.... home is where the heart is. im beginning to realize the truth of that statement. Being in Melbourne for more than a year, leaving mum, dad n bro for more than a year, allowed me to learn the essence of family and home, is really where your heart is.

 I'm not saying that people back home are out of my circle I still miss them and love them more than life itself, but, this is home, i have such an amazingly awesome spiritual family here.

The 2 greatest senior pastors ever! russel and sam evans, the way they constantly cast visions to all of us, be it a staff or a leader in the church to a 2 day old Christian. This totally opens up a whole new desire, and an increase of faith and hope that it is possible to see this city saved, or rather, it is possible to see heaven on earth. To dream bigger dreams , to see greater visions come to pass.

In line with having the greatest senior pastors, we have the greatest university pastor, this generation has ever seen, MATT FIELDER, the way he loves all of us so much especially the international students. Theres is no way being in the presence of this man of god where u don't catch on to the tenacity and energy bursting out of him. In so many ways, he has inspired me probably even without knowing it. I mean, I could still remember in February this year, I would have never even responded with a clap during the preachings ,  even when I felt like jumping off the seat, but because of him being who he is, u cant help but break out of  that. Just seeing the way he lives and hearing the way he lives life makes u lift your eyes up and keep going forward coz… there's more to come.

Then of course,  Sharene , whom I would not be where I am today if it weren't for her constantly believing in me. And there's Jase who's childlike faith never ceases to inspire me. The lovely and ever so compassionate peijet im starting to get to know.

 

This is where God has placed me for the next couple of years and this is where my heart is as well. So well, if u do the math, with the equation of the statement above, I'd say , my heart tells me this is ….home…  

A  bunch of us drove up to the great ocean road for a day trip last week. I cant believe i even bothered considering going for it. for those who dont know , me and long drives.... NOT good. But i decided to go anyway. So we headed off in a van and brent's Hyundai. i got the luxury of sitting in the front seat of that 12 seater van.
 
About 2 and a half hours into the drive, i was literally ready to throw up.  Jase was playing some worship music on our way there, and the only thing i could do was to focus on something else. so i tried focusing on the music, the beat of mike's drumming or henry's voice singing but it didnt work. Jase started throwing out scenario's which might help me get over it.  None of that worked as well. At the end i juz laid my head back, i felt myself starting to get the cold sweat. Thank god jase stopped the van for the rest to take some pics.

Inside i was juz going "GOd.... i dont wanna do this anymore.".when we started to get on the road again, i stopped focusing on the worship music playing but i started focussing on the  worship. I began tapping into the spirit, when i did that , there was this huge release the pounding headache cleared out in just about a minute into it. i could then open my eyes and enjoy the scenery the rest of the way there.

its the same as our walk, along the way sometimes u get tired and u just wanna  get into bed and lie down for a bit.  but thats the one thing of living in the spirit. U dont do things with ur flesh. and as u begin to tap into the spirit the possibilities are endless. An insentive along the way, u're not going through 'life' alone, the whole drive to the 12 apostles, Jase was making sure the speed he was goin at, to the point of the temperature of the van was alright for me.

When we walk down this journey of life, we have people around us who constantly lovingly pushes us , encouraging and occasionally giving the kick of love behind. they're the ones who lifts our hands even higher when we feel like we can't lift it up any longer.





On the other hand, if we stop when we go through the valleys and decide to get out of the van, we would miss out on the beauty along the way....










And of course we'd miss out on the ultimate beauty of all, when we finally get there












   

i miss KOLO MEEE, i miss Gu bak meee, i miss sio bee, i miss teh-o-ais limau, i miss grandma's curry, i miss my piano, i miss home.......*sigh*

" I am a child of the king, an heir of God and a joint heir with Christ. I am more than a conqueror through him who loves me. Fear has no place in my life, because God have not given me a spirit of fear. I am confident that no weapon formed against me shall prosper, because God is for me. Who can be against me?

 

Every curse spoken against me is to no avail, because I am blessed. Satan cannot curse whom God has blessed I am blessed coming in and going out. My enemies shall come up against me in one way but God would cause them to flee in seven ways. All I set my hands to do will prosper. All the people of the earth shall see that I am called by the name of the lord.

 

The Lord has made me to prosper in all things. I am a lender and not a borrower. I am the head and not the tail. I am above only and not beneath. I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things to come, nor height , nor death, nor any other creature shall be able to separate me from the love of God. "

Der fin doug ein doug..... translation- today was a good day.

had sharene over at my new place the entire afternoon. its always very refreshing whenever i have one of those sessions with sharene. later that afternoon, wayne popped by n OMG the guy instantly became the interior designer for my apartment.

btw, for those who dont know, i juz moved into my new place bout 2 weeks ago.yes, theres gonna be a housewarming coming up pretty soon. Wayne is most probably more excited than i am since he loves feeding people. hehheh.

since we're on the topic of food. larissa cooked a BEAUTIFUL 3 course dinner for bout 5 of us.

 alrite guys, PREPARE to DROOLLLL

first off we have the lovely appetizer. potato , asparagus with some delicious sour white sauce thing. no idea what its called but it was soooo yummmm



then we dove straight into the main meal. LAMb shank n cous cous. that was ahhhh....heaven



we ended with poached peach with red wine and lots n lots of sugar, and pudding with the base soaked in red wine. that juz totally made my trip to the country sooo worth while. (anywhere thats not in the city is the country)


 
AND... last but not least , *drumroll* the one and only chef larissa who made this evening possible.



der fin doug ein doug

signing off

had dinner over at groove train to celebrate jess's bday, had a huge plate of deep fried calamari which i totally regretted. deep fried food doesnt do a soar throat any good. (lesson learnt).

thats the bday gal


half of the table

wan, jess, elissa n raul



Camp is bout a week away! so tired with uni work but the expectations starting to really build up now. Am sooooo not looking forward to the drive there though.y cant there be a direct flight to phillip islandddd

So yeah, had a movies nite over at adele's place.

here's what we had to choose from. n yes if u're wondering , they're ALL originals.

after the first movie(not exactly my type of movie) but oh well,we had a hand game thingo session. which i was out after the 2nd hit.

 A bunch of the guys headed off after that . The rest of us stayed back n had another round of movie. Watched Johnny English! Nearing the end of the movie, the dvd got jammed, and for a good 5 mins, we stared at the ass of a priest in his white underwear! OH what a BliNdIng sight! ….. until Joel got it working again.

 

Got home at nearly 2 am. Was thinking of doin some studying, but NAH….. thought I'd take a break for tonite. Hehehehe ( I seem to be saying that every nite)

 

So decided to do my dev instead. Had Sidney play "mengenalmu" at the background. Went to 2cor4

 

Bila ku buka mataku,(when I open my eyes)

 Dan lihat wajahmu,(and gaze into your face)

Ku terkagum,(I'm so amazed)

 

Bila ku lihat hidupku,(when I look at my life)

Dan karya tanganmu,(and the fingerprints all over my life)

Ku tersanjung,(im honored)

 

Karma semua yang baik dalam hidupku (coz everything that's good in my life)

Itulah karyamu (is the work of your hands)

Kau beri, kesempatan yang baru ( you've given me a brand new chance)

 

Dan ku ingin mengenal my tuhan (and I wanna know you God)

Lebih dalam dari semua yang ku kenal (deeper than what I already know)

Tiada kasih yang melebihi mu (there's no greater love than yours)

Ku ada untuk menjadi penyembahmu. (I was made to worship you)

-sidney mohede-

 

I guess sometimes I do forget on where I can set my eyes on. When all is but a fiery storm, and my lips are just too cracked by the dark winter cold to shout praises to my king. God brings me to that quiet place, where his one touch just turns all the ashes life has or had to offer me, into beauty. All I can do is to just stand in awe on how far he's brought me from the day I decided to come back home to him.

 

Ok alrite, I hav decided! I shall raise my blog from the dead, and will begin blogging religiously from now on. ARISE BLOG!! ARISEE!!!

its probably all the exam fever getting to me tat im making such a bold commitment. Or maybe coz its 5am and im typing this entry. BLEHHH….Ramblings of a procrastinator…Arghhh NEED SLEEP.  

Nyway, here's a little update……

 

I HAVE a JOB!!! Yeah…I'm actually working, earning my own money, paying taxes the whole deal. Lydia's a big girl now. Man, my first real job. And im loving it. I get  paid a basic pay of $18.71 per hour, tats excluding bonuses. Heheheh. It's a telephone interviewer position. Basically I give surveys over the phone and hope the person on the other line doesn't slam down the phone on me. As easy as that! No running around, serving customers. Sitting on a really comfy chair with a a computer screen and a headset during the entire shift. Here's the best part… I GET TO WEAR ANYTHINGGGGG. Hehehehe. SOOO….if anyone gets a call from the morgan gallop poll, DO NOT hang up!

 

Could still remember bout 3 weeks plus ago, I saw the ad for this job, and God was asking me to apply for it, but the stubborn me, was like… "No! don't wanna, I want a job in Big W or safeway (its like a Carrefour or Kmart)" . I thought that was the best job u could actually score. U get paid $13-15 per hour. Tats a lot  of money for a part time student job. So yeah, I didn't apply for this job. I meant no wen I said my no. But God didn't giv up at all. He kept bugging me  over the next 2 weeks after. And finally I gave in and applied for it. The very next day I got called in for an interview. I totally stuffed up at the assessment bit,  where they had a little roleplay. Accidentally crashed the system in the middle of  it (it was not my fault... i was working on a laptop that was probably a century old).but then again, I had no idea of what I was doing at all. I was so ready to get up and walk out of the building.

After it finally ended,  the supervisor told me to come back for an induction in the next 2 days! Talk about the favour of God here.

 

 

Next in line would be my uni work. There was a particular programming subject where I pretty much literally flunked the entire course. I had only 10% out of 60% of that course at hand, but God, hehehe..he turned that 10% into 100%. He turned my failing mark to a high distinction in just a week! Tats the gist of it .

long story. my fingers are starting to fail me. Nearly 5am! I think I'm starting to see double linesss… I just read through the entire entry, I've juz realized a cruel fact… my English..it's BAD... oh man, wads happening to  ittttt!!!!!

 

 maybe I really should get some sleep.

 

 

NOOO must not rest till finish entire textbook…….